Smiling does not necessarily mean you're happy．Sometimes，it just means you're strong.微笑不一定就是开心，有时，微笑只说明你很坚强。 ​​​​

Today still down with Flu wanna go out for coffee but don't think I can do it as my body-ache and neck ache is killing me and I'm taking painkiller and back to bed once again,,,

多么痛的领悟 你曾是我的全部

Deep feeling and Thought

Sometime human is really hard to handle as we are live in a world full of selfish people who only care about themselves  and hurt other just to gain what they want or what benefit them most.

I always think for other but after few month of starting my own business I truly learn my lesson in a hard way and this truly make my heart so tired and disappointed.

I got to start thinking of what benefit my business most than just helping other and learn less than what i should.. after helping other and end up with problem that is should not have to face .
I truly feel so useless and helpless and I just not that kind of people who share my problem with other, I truly look strong but strong people still have they're  time feel weak and helpless ( Crying alone in the dark) I learn no one can be trusted other than family but I am handling my business by myself without help from them, but i believe I can over come every problem I face but I just need time to learn and get use to being independent and mentally strong.

This few day I've been very busy with work and still having flu and body-ache but every time when I'm busy with my work ,I truly forget about sick and pain that I'm having but my client have been truly loving buying food and drink and keep asking me to eat as I have lost a lot of weigh since last they seen me,

And a lot people keep ask why I not married ?why no bf ? As I truly don't believe in love and marriage as seeing people a round me and my dad, I  know most people sweet talk just to get what they want from your and than leave and I really don't have time for that than my creating my own future and giving my family a better living.

My dream is to able to travel around the whole by myself or maybe with someone i love , I love not look for love as I believe what will be will be... I happy being single with all my freedom to do what I want.

Think that should be all I'm gonna write today and all my best for my business.

薛之谦《天份》我有点疼但是我还能忍

My Christmas present 🎁

祝大家圣诞快乐。Merry Christmas to all 🎄

第一年當老闆的聖誕節，一早就起來忙公司的事可是一切都值得💋💋聖誕節快樂親愛的🎄

Birthday day celebration for Cool 😎 guy... with princess ❤️

I truly fortunate to have so many client that trusted in my service and me so many year ❤️thanks Eileen And her Husband for the lunch 🙏🏻

Thanks my Long term client Ms Han for the coffee snack from her holidays...💋💋💋

不要在一件别扭的事上纠缠太久。纠缠久了，你会烦，会痛，会厌，会累，会神伤，会心碎。实际上，到最后，你不是跟事过不去，而是跟自己过不去。无论多别扭，你都要学会抽身而退。不要因为去绝美风景的路上偶遇了一条臭水沟，而坏了欣赏美的心境，而耽误了其它的美，要想想你为什么来这里。 ​​​

Dinner treat at Collin’s by cool 😎...❤️

甜甜的❤️

Yes

My bubble tea delivery from 😎 after back to sg by Sharetea 💋💋💋u are best 🙏🏻

我相信肯努力的人,成功是必然的💍晚安咯🍮

人生至少一次，放空自己，放下所有，清净自己，做自己想做的❤️这就是我这幾天在做的事❤️別太想我喔💋

也许现在的你很累，但未来的路还很长，不要忘了当初为何而出发，是什么让你坚持到现在，勿忘初心。丢失的自己 ，只能一点一点捡回来。现在的我不配喊累， 因为我一无所有。把委屈和泪水都咽下去，输不起就不要输，死不了就站起来，告诉所有看不起你的人：我很好。

07Dec 2018

It's have been 7 day since my  update ,As per normal it’s a working day where I’m busy at Philippine embassy for my company accreditation where I was rushing here and there so I could get Everything done by today and collect back all document by next week and I never forget about my crazy shopping time at 3pm as going to Embassy  I got to settle my lunch by myself as don’t want to bring so much thing with me  .At office I spend time streaming at Bigo and this time I chat about topics that is my ex colleague Pauline who is kind of fat but use the photo and detail of other gal as herself to attract attention and chat with the guy with her cute and sweet voice and have online relationship with them and make those guy send gift and transfer fund for her own need but all ending is horrible once the guy found out who she really is and how she really look like  (they just have sex with her and left her) but that never since to bother her even after it happen time to time. Now I wonder how is she now after so many year have past. Hope she really find someone who is true to her and accept who she is  and her everything 🙏🏻

  A

“People throw rocks at things that shine,But they can’t take what’s belong to us.The stakes are high, the water's rough, But this love is ours. ”---人们会朝着发光发亮的东西扔小石子，但是他们夺不走那些属于我们的东西生活会让爱看上去异常的艰难风险是这样的高，水也是这样的汹涌。但是，爱，依 ​​​

True feeling and thought from my heart

Yesterday i took a day rest from work and spend time alone walking a round Bugi street after praying but other than the food that my young bro want I buy nothing this time as it was so pack and i hate that kind of feeling that we go to Q up no-matter what we want to buy.

I have no Love problem but some may think I have by look at what I mostly post online but that is past feeling now I'm kind of numb with alot of thing...am i ?? i wonder??

I got people and family who love me and here with me through thick and thin  for so long and never leave me even with my bad temper and demanding character.  I just wanna say thanks and I love all of you more than my life.

Now my heart is kind of tired after what that I have go through alone after start my own business I learn and see a lot of true character of human that truly break me down and make my heart tired and don't know who can be trusted.

And on Bigo someone use my pic to ask a guy out while I was a sleep after my medicine since 8pm.
I received msg from him ~are u coming out or not if not I will make a Uturn and go back.

I was Huh?? did u msg wrong person or not lor. So it a punk someone play on him but why me ?

Whoever it's if you think that really can make u happy than good for you but what will you get from this ? People who got no life and nothing better to do.

Let forget everything and start our day with prositive mind and most importune a smile.

終究會選個愛自己的人 然後忘掉那個深愛著的人 收起天真 不再 期待永恆 任憑你和日子長滿灰塵 然後關上門打開了另一扇門 或許開始 一段新的旅程 就能完整 可走到哪裡 還是會有惦記 熟悉的場景 都和你有聯繫 明明是想忘記 卻偏偏又想你 這樣的劇情 真的 沒道理 可走到哪裡 卻走不出回憶 雖然我很努力 試著去忘記 一直告誡自己 我們不會再有交集 有些事真的回不去 終究會選個愛自己的人 然後忘掉那個深愛著的人 收起天真 不再 期待永恆 任憑你和日子長滿灰塵 然後關上門打開了另一扇門 或許開始 一段新的旅程 就能完整 可走到哪裡 還是會有惦記 熟悉的場景 都和你有聯繫 明明是想忘記 卻偏偏又想你 這樣的劇情 真的 沒道理 可走到哪裡 卻走不出回憶 雖然我很努力 試著去忘記 一直告誡自己 我們不會再有交集 有些事真的回不去 可走到哪裡 卻走不出回憶 雖然我很努力 試著去忘記 一直告誡自己 我們不會再有交集 有些事真的回不去

https://youtu.be/mXYtJidVaPQ

Thanks my Client Mr Goh finance vice president of DBS for the gift from Italy n bird nest n lunch 🙏🏻感恩

29 Nov 2018 Raining day

Today was an day with heavy rain when I am out to settle my Embassy submittion and once again i bring nothing along with me to keep myself from getting wet and the cab are not allow to drive into the embassy so i got to run thought the rain to get into the cab.
But I manage to settle everything in less than half a day.
I went shopping around after reaching wheelock but was not really in shopping mood as the rain have make me headache once again. But i brought some food from my favourita Bakery like I always do if I'm there.

人不要太过善良，如果事事 太大度和宽容，多了，别人不再感激你，反而 会变本加厉。人要有点脾气好，过分善 良会让自己丢失自己的价值和尊严。人善被人欺，马善被人骑，人们只会挑软柿子捏，凡事 适可而止，善良过了头，就缺少 心眼；谦让过了头，就成了 软弱。学着拒绝，才能看见自己。 ​ ​​​～從商之后我发觉太为别人着想，往往吃亏的是自己。我學會了拒絕

给自己一个微笑，告诉自己：人不仅活得要像钻石一样闪亮，还要像钻石一样坚强！！不唯唯诺诺、不杞人忧天。人生就是一个磨练的过程，如果没有这些酸甜苦辣，你永远都不会成熟！所以，我们应该在阳光下灿烂，风雨中奔跑，泪水中成长，拼搏中展望，对自己说一声：昨天挺好，今天很好，明天会更好！ ​​ ​​​

27 Nov 2018 feeling n thought

Working on sick day.....as what to do as is my own business.it's fine to spend time at my so call second home.But last night in total i woke up for 5 time even Imyself don't understand why do I woke up ? Too stress? Block nose? or what?
Life is never easy for anyone but we still got to over come and face it no-matter what but I truly believe it will only make me stronger than before. Hope thing will get better after sometime.

26Nov2018

Have been down with fever n flu since yesterday but still crawl to office to work but it have been such along time since last I wear jean pant as don't want my flu to go worst as it's better to keep myself warm. Taken my medicine before leaving home to work and had an 1 hour nap after settle my paper work. But luck that I did go to work as my courier from Philippine  with importune document was deliver to my office today therefore i could process the rest of documentation as soon as possible and it will be a great help to improve my business once it done.Now I'm uploading some data to my company system before I can end my working day and go home .

妮琦宝贝 11月22日 21:07 来自 iPhone 活着，傻点，愣点，憨点，简单点就好！！！太精明，太清楚，太明白，伤心，难过，受苦的只会是自己！！！不论是朋友，亲人，都别太较真，糊里糊涂的才能相处下去，谁也不比谁聪明多少，谁也不比谁傻多少，有时候不计较，不生气是因为还有“情”可言，吃亏是福，人生在世不过几十年，又何必因为事和利而斤斤计较，我始终相信好人有好报！！！傻人有傻福

No matter how you feel. Get up, dress up, show up, and never give up. 不管感觉有多糟，起床，打扮，露面，永不放弃。

23 nov 2018

It have been since along time seen i last really updated here... I have been busy running my own business without  anyone help and it really kind of making me stress up as  a lot of thing happen during  this few week. I learn that not all people can be trusted and word change when its passing through people vs people so it's better to speak directly than listen to other.
As in business it's will cos loosing of money and i truly learn my lesson already and it's a lesson not to forgotten as business wise it better to do it by our-self than depend on other help....Sometime they don't have any bad intention but thing just happen on the process of passing message.
Truly hope Dec 2018 will be good start as Nov 2018my birthday month ,thing have not been up to my expectation and I'm truly stress up.

Halloween Night with Bestie....

It have been since a long time since last I go clubbing on Halloween night. This is also to distress and celebrate Bestie relocated to Yishun Branch to work.

每次崩溃的理由别人看来是小题大做，只有自己心里清楚这根稻草到底压垮了多少千斤重的难过。

The thing is, when she falls, she falls hard, and no matter how many times she says “I don’t care”, she really does.---事实上，当她爱了，就是深爱，而且无论她说了多少次“我不在乎”，她其实都在乎。 ​​​晚安亲爱的。

The saddest part of a broken heart, Isn’t the ending so much as the start. The tragedy starts from the very first spark, Losing your mind for the sake of your heart.----心碎最痛苦的，不是事情的悲伤结局变成了另一个开始，而是从这个悲剧一开始，你就迷失自己了。 — at 妮綺之家.

Chinese Pork Bun Recipe (Baozi 包子)

Ingredients: For the dough 2 cups All purpose flour(best to get dumpling or bun flour at Chinese market) : http://amzn.to/2q3e3u5 3/4 cups of water 1tsp yeast 1tsp sugar Filling: White pepper, couple pinches 12 oz pork, 70/30 or 80/20 is best, not too lean 1 tsp minced ginger 1 stalk of scallion 1 tbsp soy sauce 1/4 tsb salt 1/4 tsb sugar 1 tbsp oyster sauce: 1 tbsp chinese rice cooking wine: http://amzn.to/2qDZom3 2 tsp corn starch 2 tbsp sesame oil: http://amzn.to/1MNd1lL .4 cup of water

领悟

Carnation Flower Color Meanings

While all carnations symbolize love and affection, the color of the flower also carries meaning. Consider these meanings before presenting carnations to someone you love.

• Red: Deep Love and Admiration
• White: Pure Love and Good Luck
• Pink: A Mother’s Love
• Yellow: Disappointment or Rejection
• Purple: Capriciousness
• Striped: Rejection or Regret

Meaningful Botanical Characteristics of the Carnation Flower

Carnations are used in tea to relieve stress, fatigue, depression, insomnia and female hormonal imbalances. They are also used in massage oils to treat skin irritations or reduce the appearance of wrinkles. The ancient Aztec Indians used carnation tea as a diuretic and to treat chest congestion. The primary use of carnations in the United States is as a cut flower or in cosmetics.

Special Occasions for the Carnation Flowers

Carnations are appropriate for nearly any occasion, as they are a symbol of both love and distinction. Carnation in the school colors are often presented to graduates or recipients of academic and sports awards.  Pink carnations are popular for Mother’s Day while the green carnation is prized on St. Patrick’s Day.

The Carnation Flower’s Message Is…

The carnation flower’s message is as individual as the recipient is. While they all symbolize love, distinction and fascination, you can tailor your message by the color you choose.

Rose Flower Meanings based on Color

Red Roses: A red rose is an unmistakable expression of love. Red roses convey deep emotions - be it love, longing or desire. Red Roses can also be used to convey respect, admiration or devotion. A deep red rose can be used to convey heartfelt regret and sorrow. The number of red roses has special romantic meanings associated with them. 12 red roses is the most popular of all which conveys "Be mine" and "I love you"

White Roses: White is the color of purity, chastity and innocence. White flowers are generally associated with new beginnings and make an ideal accompaniment to a first-time bride walking down the aisle. White flowers can be used to convey sympathy or humility. They also are indicative of spirituality. Hence, white roses also follow suit.

Yellow Roses: Yellow roses are an expression of exuberance. Yellow roses evoke sunny feelings of joy, warmth and welcome. They are symbols of friendship and caring. The yellow rose, like the other roses, does not carry an undertone of romance. It indicates purely platonic emotions.

Pink Roses: There are a lot of variations of the pink rose. Over all, pink roses are used to convey gentle emotions such as admiration, joy and gratitude. Light pink rose blooms are indicative of sweetness and innocence. Deep pink rose blooms convey deep gratitude and appreciation. Pink roses also connote elegance and grace.

Orange Roses: While a yellow rose reminds us of the sun, an orange rose reminds us of a fiery blaze. These fiery blooms signify passion and energy. Orange roses can be used to express intense desire, pride and fervor. They also convey a sense of fascination. These flowers rival only the red roses as messengers of passion in romance.

Lavender Roses: A Lavender rose like its color conveys enchantment. It also expresses "love at first sight". Darker shades of lavender roses (close to purple) convey a sense of regal majesty and splendor. These roses are used to express fascination and adoration.


Blue Roses: A perfectly blue rose is still elusive like the perfectly black rose. Blue roses cannot be achieved naturally so they represent the unattainable or the mysterious. Blue roses therefore embody the desire for the unattainable. They say "I can't have you but I can't stop thinking about you"

Green roses: Green is the color of harmony, of opulence, of fertility. It is also a color indicative of peace and tranquility. Green roses (these are off-white roses with shades of green) can symbolize best wishes for a prosperous new life or wishes for recovery of good health


Black Roses: Black is the color of death and farewell. A black rose, like the blue rose remains elusive. What we know as black roses are actually really dark red roses. Black roses convey the death of a feeling or idea. Sending black roses to someone indicates the death of the relationship.

Mixed Roses: By mixing rose blooms of different colors purposefully, you can create a bouquet of emotions. For example, a bouquet of red and white roses would mean I love you intensely and my intentions are honorable. A random mix of roses would convey mixed feelings or send a message: "I don't know what my feelings are yet but I sure do like you enough to send you roses."

Meaning of Roses – from 1 to 100

A single rose – often gifted to those you love, a single rose indicates ‘love at first sight’.

2 Roses – you would gift two single roses to those you are deeply in love with.

3 Roses – ‘I love you’.

4 Roses – the perfect way to say ‘nothing will come between us’.

5 Roses – a great way signify your love for a special someone. If you want to show a partner or friend how much you care for them, five roses is an ideal option.

6 Roses – signifies ‘I want to be yours’. If you’re dating someone and wish to take your relationship to the next level, gifting them with six roses is the perfect way to subtly express those feelings.

7 Roses – when considering the meaning of roses, this quantity signifies infatuation.

8 Roses – if a friend or family member is going through a tricky time, eight roses is the perfect number to gift them with as it shows support.

9 Roses – a symbol of eternal love. You would often give this exact number of roses to those you wish to spend the rest of life with.

10 Roses – a simple yet powerful way to tell a special someone ‘they’re perfect’.

11 Roses – ‘you are my treasured one’.

12 Roses – gifting someone you are fond of with 12 single roses is a simple way to ask them to be yours.

13 Roses – the meaning of roses when presented in the number 13 can either symbolise eternal friendship or a secret admirer.

14 Roses – if you’re proud of someone, 14 roses is the number to choose.

15 Roses – if you’ve done something to upset someone and wish for forgiveness, opt for 15 roses.

16 Roses – say ‘Bon Voyage’ with 16 roses.

17 Roses – this is the number of roses you would gift your wife, be it on her birthday or another special occasion.

18 Roses – if you wish to tell a loved one to ‘stay young and beautiful’, gift them with 18 roses, a symbol of sincerity and trueness.

19 Roses – the number of roses to give someone you plan to wait for.

20 Roses – symbolic of sincerity and belief.

21 Roses – show your commitment with a bouquet of 21 roses.

22 Roses – this quantity boasts two meanings – togetherness and luck.

24 Roses – let a special somebody know they’re always on your mind with a gift of 24 single rose stems.

25 Roses – wish someone all the happiness in the world with 25 roses.

27 Roses – tell your wife how much you love her with 27 roses.

30 Roses – this quantity suggests faith and faithfulness.

33 Roses – signifies affection.

36 Roses – one way to remind your partner of all of the romantic moments you have shared together.

37 Roses – if you love someone from the bottom of your heart, tell them how much with the gift of 37 roses.

40 Roses – if you hold a genuine love for a special someone, this is the number to choose.

44 Roses – when you wish to pledge an unchanging and constant love.

47 Roses – this number signifies ‘you are my one and only’.

48 Roses – representative of an unchanging love.

50 Roses – unconditional love.

51 Roses – if you only have one person on your mind, choose a bouquet of 51 roses.

56 Roses – this number in a bouquet simply means ‘love’.

66 Roses – this quantity on the other hand suggests ‘my love for you will never change’.

77 Roses – this number of roses signifies ‘faith’ and that you believe the person you are gifting is your soul mate.

88 Roses – if you owe someone a rather big apology, 88 is the number of stems to choose.

99 Roses – want to let a special someone know you’ll love you till the day you die? Give them a bouquet containing 99 single rose stems.

100 Roses – a gesture of devotion.

So there you have it – if you’re planning to gift a special someone with roses anytime soon, be sure to get the right number!

21 Flowers with Bunny & Fairylights "Just like the stars in the sky, you are the light of my life."

9 Roses with 2 Ballons & Fairylights "Just like the stars in the sky, you are the light of my life."

33 Roses with Pearls "三生三世 只愿和你在一起" (To be with you in the Past life , Present life & Future life)

Patience with family is love, Patience with others is respect, Patience with self is confidence.---对家里人充满耐心是爱的表现， 对别人充满耐心是种尊敬， 对自已充满耐心是种自信。

有时候，就是想大哭一场， 因为心里憋屈。 有时候，就是想疯癫一下， 因为情绪低落。 有时候，就是想破口大骂， 因为心里不爽。 有时候，就是想安安静静， 因为真的我累了。 ​ ​​​​

This is what i do everyday ..........flower ....flower...flower ....and I'm now taking floristry diploma course ...