Deep feeling and Thought

Sometime human is really hard to handle as we are live in a world full of selfish people who only care about themselves  and hurt other just to gain what they want or what benefit them most.

I always think for other but after few month of starting my own business I truly learn my lesson in a hard way and this truly make my heart so tired and disappointed.

I got to start thinking of what benefit my business most than just helping other and learn less than what i should.. after helping other and end up with problem that is should not have to face .
I truly feel so useless and helpless and I just not that kind of people who share my problem with other, I truly look strong but strong people still have they're  time feel weak and helpless ( Crying alone in the dark) I learn no one can be trusted other than family but I am handling my business by myself without help from them, but i believe I can over come every problem I face but I just need time to learn and get use to being independent and mentally strong.

This few day I've been very busy with work and still having flu and body-ache but every time when I'm busy with my work ,I truly forget about sick and pain that I'm having but my client have been truly loving buying food and drink and keep asking me to eat as I have lost a lot of weigh since last they seen me,

And a lot people keep ask why I not married ?why no bf ? As I truly don't believe in love and marriage as seeing people a round me and my dad, I  know most people sweet talk just to get what they want from your and than leave and I really don't have time for that than my creating my own future and giving my family a better living.

My dream is to able to travel around the whole by myself or maybe with someone i love , I love not look for love as I believe what will be will be... I happy being single with all my freedom to do what I want.

Think that should be all I'm gonna write today and all my best for my business.