Emotional and also physically weak

Today is a day that I'm feeling emotional and also physically weak til i break down at my office and cry so badly til my friend was so worry that they keep asking me to go home rest that is de time i realize I'm still having fever...As what my mommy say i'm feeling this way as i never eat much before i took my medicine that why I'm feeling nervous and easy effect by my feeling. At that very moment I'm feeling so useless and upset.What upset me most is when someone say that they love you and post missing other gal online but his never  wrong ,In return saying that I'm de one talking about other guy on my blogs .. But i never did say miss or love any other guy in my blogs that for sure.. but he's doing it in front  of me and still I'm de one who wrong.
Is a word sorry enough to cover the pain he cause? Just like i given you a slap den in return i just say sorry...Will you be happy??  After this happen i started to think all this, is it worth loving someone like this?? What do i really mean to de person at all??
Maybe one day he will finally  know what love really is when everything end...Let see how far will this last and what he's willing to do for love...Now I'm planing for a short break this month end about 2-3 day get away to rest and relax my mind before my next long Holiday at Christmas^^.
Last I wanna say now is sorry mommy for making you worry for me and i know you love me de most den anyone ever did. I promise to be good to myself from now onward...